I am a writer, but it is better if I do not think about it.
I sometimes wonder if I really enjoy writing without feeling vulnerable. I have been faced to writing tasks for a long time and I still fight with both, my left hand and mind, every time I am gently requested to overcome a writing assignment. Is it self-esteem? Is it lack of confidence? What is the deep reason for my feeling this way? Do I really want to become a competitive writer?
As far as I remember, I started writing when I was four. At that time, I was able to produce only colorful labeled drawings, and I enjoyed this limited writing a lot. Once I started primary school, I was able to dive into words and to make such isolated words sound both authoritative and symphonic. On the other hand, I only remember boredom and stagnation from my secondary school. My learning process was compulsory focused on repetition, the Bible, and repetition again… pure frustrating stagnation.
As years went by, I started recovering the pleasure for words, both written and spoken, as I could see them in a piece form the Bosco, or enjoy their magnificent sound in a meaningful song.
As a matter of fact, the key is not thinking in writing as a task. I strongly believe that writing outcomes are better if they are the result of creativity and pleasure. The true thing is that we can all be writers, we are all writers, but it is much better is we are not aware of it. If we feel delighted by the art of writing, we will surely increase our self-confidence and we will be able to express exactly what we are willing to. Mind and hand should encounter somewhere inside us, and then, our writings will turn to be enjoyable ones.